All the things I should've said.

I was raised by two parents. I was very lucky to have them both in my life but my dad was not the best at being kind to me. I later found out why but that's beside the point. I grew up in a household where yelling from my dad was normal. He yelled and screamed at us almost more than he spoke to us. since I was about 8, I have resented him for it. Everyone tells me, "well you still love your dad" and "he's still your dad, you have to like him and respect him" but honestly, I cannot stand him. I have so much pent up rage at him because I was raised not to talk back or I'd get yelled at even more. While this is a good trait to have, you should not scare your children into making them respect you because eventually, when they have thoughts of their own and they have people around them to talk to about what their parent does to them, they will resent their parent. I have come to not really talk to my dad about anything and he doesn't understand why I don't tell him things. I don't tell him because he probably would yell at me for all of the things that I would say to him. He can't control his temper and I take completely after my mom. They're divorced now so I am becoming my mother in his eyes. I am just like her and he has the same temper and the same type of arguments with me hat he had with her and I'm tired of it. People wonder why I get so sad and it's because of my dad. I can't stand to be around him. I can't stand him in general. I look back on all of the things I should've said to him and I regret that I never did. I've started speaking my mind around him and to him and we get in a lot more fights now. I just hope it gets better because it's really frustrating tome that he wants me to be open with him but then I get in trouble when I am..