Words from the Wise

Focus on school. Seriously I was way too worried about my social life and instead I should've been worrying about getting my 64 percent in Anatomy and Physiology up in the last three weeks of school. Take it from someone who knows from experience, FOCUS ON SCHOOLWORK. Junior year is the hardest because really it is your "last" year of high school. Not to say that senior year is a going to be a breeze but senior year starts to get you ready for the real world. It's a practice test to set you up for adult life. Junior year is the most important college wise. You take standardized tests that colleges look at and they look at your grades up through your senior year. My grades haven't been so great this year and I don't want to blame it on anything but myself but my parents separated and divorced this year so I'm sure that that was part of the issue. My life got completely overturned on top of me so it makes sense that my school studies might have dropped. All I'm saying is just seriously focus on school. If there are things going on at home or with kids at school, dive into your schoolwork. Don't get caught up in other problems. It will only make you depressed and upset and then you come to find out that you're failing on top of it all. When that happened to me, it was almost too much for me to handle anymore. This has been the hardest year of my life with my parents divorcing, being in a bad relationship, having the courage to leave that person, finding someone who I fell in love with just to be let go again. I found someone else who filled that hole in my life and then he left. My best friend moved to Florida and now I'm losing him too. So again, I say, this has been the hardest year of my life and I urge you sophomores to just focus on you and your work. I spent way too many hours crying and moruning over people and relationships when I could've been studying for that test or working on those last few questions that I kind of halfway tried on. Please just do the best you can and ask for help if you need it.

Hudson Honors 2016

Most Interesting Part of This Class: When we read Beowulf
Least Favorite Part of This Class: GRAMMAR PACKETS
Hardest I Laughed in This Class: "Grammar is a never ending infomercial. You think it's over
                                                          and then it's like, But wait, there's More!"
Favorite Memory from This Class: When Jeffrey and Brody had a sword fight in the
                                                           classroom
Best Thing About Hudson as a Teacher: We can get her completely off topic but she somehow
                                                                     manages to get everything done on time
Thing Hudson Could do to Make This Class Better For Future Classes: Nothing. She's perfect.
                                                                                           And a vampire so ten points to Gryffindor.

Any Final Comments for Hudson: It's been a great year kid. Keep it up.

Yellow Submarine Murder Mystery

Okay so I read the prompt and of course, my morbid, cynical mind immediately thought, murder on the submarine. Sixteen kids and a teacher all on a sub, and someone gets brutally murdered. We have to figure out who did it. So our victim will be Hannah. Just for laughs since she's my best friend. (RUDE -Hannah) (Lol I love her...)
So we all get onto the sub and we go around and look at everything. Of course it isn't very large but we don't really need a lot of space for all of us. It was late when we got here so we eat dinner and then retire to our beds for a long night. When we wake up in the morning, it's very quiet. A lot of kids are already out of their bunks and looking for breakfast, I assume. I roll out of bed and see that Hannah's bunk is empty. It's not like her to get up late so I don't think anything of it and I proceed to the breakfast room. Everyone is sitting at the long table and talking quietly. I glance around and notice that Hannah isn't there. Maybe in the bathroom, I thought. I sit down and ask Jessica Garber, whom I'm sitting next to, "Have you seen Hannah this morning?" and she replied, "Someone killed her."

I stare at Jess in shock. I felt the tears welling up inside me and I couldn't hold it together. I started bawling and I asked again and again if she was serious. She told me she was and that if I wanted to know for sure, she was in the command center of the sub. I agreed to go and I followed her up there. I saw that they had placed a sheet over her and that was all I needed. I turned to Jess and I asked her who did it. She said that it was a unanimous vote that Hudson, our beloved teacher that had brought us on this amazing trip, had done it. I didn't think so but I could never be sure until three years later.

I visited Hannah's mom and dad. They had kind of turned her room into a place of peace for her friends. I visited often but this time I noticed something. Hudson had had class pictures taken outside the sub before we left. We had each received a photograph. I had long since lost mine in the move to college and so I never noticed it before. In the picture, there was a shadow next to Hannah. She was standing on the end of the front row and there was a dark smudge on the picture. I tried to wipe it away but the spot wouldn't budge.

There had been a ghost on the sub with us, all of those years ago and it had killed my best friend. One by one over the course of the next six months, my graduating class started to die in mysterious ways. The police labeled them homicides by a serial killer but it was a demon that killed them. Everyone else is dead. I'm the last one. I'll be gone soon so I needed to tell the truth about what I've learned. Please, if you read this, if I'm not already gone, don't come for me. It is my fate. I am to die at the hands of the Submarine Demon.

The End.

Okay this song is by My Chemical Romance. Remember my scary teenage angst band? Yup, they made the cut again. What can I say? They speak to me. So the song I've chosen is called The End.

Now come one come all to this tragic affair
Wipe off that makeup, what's in is despair
So throw on the black dress, mix in with the lot
You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not

If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see
You can find out firsthand what it's like to be me
So gather 'round piggies and kiss this goodbye
I'd encourage your smiles I'll expect you won't cry

Another contusion, my funeral jag
Here's my resignation, I'll serve it in drag
You've got front row seats to the penitence ball
When I grow up I want to be nothing at all! 

I said yeah, yeah! 
I said yeah, yeah!

C'mon C'mon C'mon I said
(Save me!) Get me the hell out of here
(Save me!) Too young to die and my dear
(You can't!) If you can hear me just walk away and
(Take me!)

Okay, so let's be creative with this one. This kid is seriously depressed. This song is his suicide note. It makes perfect sense. It starts out with him writing about his funeral. Everyone is crying because it's so sad. He talks about himself now, "You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not" He realized that he wasn't who he thought he was and he finally came to terms that he wasn't happy and he killed himself. The next part, "Here's my resignation, I'll serve it in drag" He is saying that he's sure and content with his decision. "When I grow up I want to be nothing at all" He won't live to grow up. Then it proceeds to say "Save me" twice and he's crying out for the help that he never received. "Take me" He's talking to his reaper, asking him to be finished.

All the things I should've said.

I was raised by two parents. I was very lucky to have them both in my life but my dad was not the best at being kind to me. I later found out why but that's beside the point. I grew up in a household where yelling from my dad was normal. He yelled and screamed at us almost more than he spoke to us. since I was about 8, I have resented him for it. Everyone tells me, "well you still love your dad" and "he's still your dad, you have to like him and respect him" but honestly, I cannot stand him. I have so much pent up rage at him because I was raised not to talk back or I'd get yelled at even more. While this is a good trait to have, you should not scare your children into making them respect you because eventually, when they have thoughts of their own and they have people around them to talk to about what their parent does to them, they will resent their parent. I have come to not really talk to my dad about anything and he doesn't understand why I don't tell him things. I don't tell him because he probably would yell at me for all of the things that I would say to him. He can't control his temper and I take completely after my mom. They're divorced now so I am becoming my mother in his eyes. I am just like her and he has the same temper and the same type of arguments with me hat he had with her and I'm tired of it. People wonder why I get so sad and it's because of my dad. I can't stand to be around him. I can't stand him in general. I look back on all of the things I should've said to him and I regret that I never did. I've started speaking my mind around him and to him and we get in a lot more fights now. I just hope it gets better because it's really frustrating tome that he wants me to be open with him but then I get in trouble when I am..

My best friend

My best friend is someone I love. He is the best and the worst thing that has ever happened to me. We met through a social event and we bonded instantly. He is very sweet and he is so kind to me. I can't even explain the connection between us. Our bond is so strong, yet we know almost nothing about each other. Somehow, I feel like I've known him for years. He's my best friend and the love of my life. I can't even explain how I feel about him. He's amazing and perfect and the sweetest, nicest, most amazing person that has ever stepped into my life. I love him and he doesn't love me. I've told him how I feel and for a while he felt the same. He has since cut ties with me in every way except friendship but that's okay. It hurts. It hurts more than anything I've ever had to deal with. I may look happy but I'm not. I miss him. He's so close but he is so far away. He doesn't understand why I'm sad but that's okay too. He doesn't have to understand why I'm hurt. As long as I've got him in my life in any way, I know I'll be alright. The day that I lose him for good will be the day that I lose myself.

My theme song

I think my theme song would be Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance. I would have them sing it or I would have Dylan sing it. I'm torn between the two because I want MCR to get back together but I want Dylan to sing it because he's a great singer and he's my best friend. I love My Chemical Romance. They are one of my favorite bands. It makes me so sad that they aren't together anymore. I love their song Mama and this other song Sleep. I think they are great. They're kind of an alternative, punk, Satan band but it's whatever. I guess you could say they're more teenage angst if nothing else. I love them though and I'm not sure who I'd pick if I had to choose between them and Dylan. Here is a picture of the band though.

Inside jokes....

Yeah I'm not allowed to say any of Meg, Tina, Queef, Richard, Cupcake and Carl's inside jokes. You probably only know who a few of those people are. Sorry I wish I could tell you but unfortunately I can't. Sorry horse. Carl's not here but *goat noise*. I love my best friends. I really do so I regretfully have to tell you that I cannot say any more about our inside jokes. From what I've said already I may be kicked out. I love them way too much to be exiled. Okay I am now done with this blog. But seriously in all reality, I'm excited for next quarter. I can't believe how fast this year has gone by. Alright ADHD stop. It's time to quit this blog oh man I cannot focus for anything....

The future

I wake up slowly, my eyes trying to adjust to the darkness. When they finally do, I look out of the glass chamber that I'm in to sew a large room spanning before me. There are other glass cases around the room but I am seemingly the only one awake. I hear a door slam, muffled by the glass and metal around me. To my left I see a man walk in with a young female assistant on his left side and another man in a lab coat on his right. The man in the middle is wearing old baggy clothing and looks like he hasn't had a shower in weeks. I instinctively close my eyes most of the way so I can still see what's happening in the dimly lit room.
 I hear the doctor's assistant say, "Are you sure he's the one?"
 "Yes," he responds solemnly, "He's definitely the one. He is the only one that has woken up."
 As he finishes saying this, the two strap the man down onto a table and they begin cutting open his skull. The man is flailing and screaming from the pain. All I can think is, "I hope he really is the one."

My sister

I  do not like my sister. She is very very annoying. Don't believe me? Ask Hannah. I wish I had an older brother. Sisters are too much drama.. Boys are so simple and easy to deal with. I have always wanted an older brother. When my sister was born I was disappointed because I really wanted a brother. If anybody has an older brother that they want to get rid of, hit me up!! I am so tired of my sister. I love her in all reality but she's such a pain!!!! I hope that my mom gets scheduled for less hours soon because it sucks to have to parent my sister. It really sucks. Okay rant over.

Two truths and a lie

Okay so I absolutely love this game. It is a favorite of mine and I like to play it with new friends so pretend you don't know me. Alright here goes nothing.

1. I've met Brendon Urie
2. My favorite movie is Deadpool
3. My favorite fruit is apricots

Okay you guys can guess which is the lie. Some more interesting things about me that you probably didn't know; I am in dance, I like to sing but I get nervous around people I don't completely trust, I really worry about my mom with the divorce and everything lately. I'm also kind of taking on the role to be a parent to my little sister right now so if I get snappy with you or anybody else I apologize because I'm dealing with a lot right now. I also recently broke up with my boyfriend so that adds some extra unnecessary stress but I know I've got people who love me and I need to let things go that I can't do anything about. So this is the end of my blog today. I've shared pieces of my life and that's enough emotion for one day I think.

A trip to where??

Okay so Hannah, Kacy and I are best friends. We've decided that we're going to buy a school bus and completely refurnish it and revamp it and go on a huge road trip and live in the bus. We'd go to the desert in Arizona and to the redwood forests. I'm super excited to live with my best friends for a year or two and see everything I want to see. Maybe eventually we will get plan tickets and have our bus taken over to other continents and see the rest of the world. I love Hannah and Kacy so much and I love to spend time with them and I can't wait to make all of those memories with them. We probably wouldn't buy a lot of souvenirs living in a bus but you know, that's okay because we have each other and we have the memories that we make together that are the most important. 

Happily ever after

My favorite couple from Disney is not really a "couple" perse but more best friends. They are Sully and Boo from Monsters Inc. Now, we know that Waternoose made Sully destroy Boo's door but Mikey put it back together for him. At the end of the movie we see Sully go into Boo's room and then the screen cuts to the credits. I think that what happened was that Sully went in and gave Mike instructions for after he shuts the door. I came up with the theory that Sully had Mike shred the door so that he and Boo could be together forever. I like to think that Sully would leave behind his best friend, Mikey, to be with the little girl that he absolutely loves. Of course Mikey loved her too but one had to stay behind because no one would shred the door for them if they went through. So Sully asked Mike to do the unthinkable and he did.

Valentine's Day

So Valentine's day is coming up and while I plan to spend it with my boyfriend, there is another that is very dear to my heart. His name is Jensen Ackles otherwise known as Dean Winchester. I would love to get to know him better because it has been said that he is a very very nice person. He's well rounded, nice to everyone and he has an unconditional love for his daughter that honestly is one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen. He sounds so amazing and hes also beautiful. Good god he's beautiful. Okay anyway, I would love to get to know him. In all honesty, I admire him so much. I would be honored to get to meet him and know him at a personal level. Plus, he's gorgeous. I mean honestly. Who could resist?

7th grade hell

So I'm just going to throw it out there that in seventh grade, I was very depressed. If I had woken up and realized that this was all just a dream, I would have been very sad. I've started such an amazing life here in Washburn. Washburn is my second chance, a new start. I love it here and I love all of the friends I've made. If I woke up, and realized that all of my friends and my life was a dream, I would get even more depressed than I was. I had one real friend and I was miserable at my old school. Everyone hated me and I got bullied all the time. It was terrible and I am so thankful to be here with so many people that I love and I know that they love me too. I feel so happy here. A lot of people say that they hate Washburn and when I say that I love it, they ask why. I never tell them it's because I was very depressed and I didn't have anyone that loved me. I love Washburn because it is my home. My heart will always belong in Washburn, no matter where I go, what I do. I will always be here.